Talk Fast

I have internet but for how long I can't say. So I'll keep this short.
I ate less than 700 calories yesterday. I estimate it to be 660. Today I'm aiming for under 500. Tonight I'll find out my schedual for next week and I'll plan a 24 hour water fast for a day I'm not working.
I managed to get caught up on blogs and everyone seems a bit down. I hope things turn up. I love every one of you and I wish you happiness and hip bones.
Much love for my lovely girls!
<3 Ariana

Sorry

My internet is such shit! I can't stay online for more than a couple minutes! Getting a new computer soon.
Love you all, pretties.
<3 Ariana

Promises, Promises

I believe its been a week and a half already since I said I had something special to post and I still haven't. So a quick update then my great discovery.

The liquid fast went fantastic yesterday. I think dinner was closer to 4 or 500 calories but it was mostly lean steak and I mostly had crystal light and I did an hour of cardio including a short run.
Today I wound up drinking a lot of chocolate milk but it was low fat and had 8 grams of protein per glass. Again, I think I probably went a little over my allotted dinner calories but I don't have an exact number. Anyways, I lost a lb from yesterday morning and I'm really hoping for the same results. Hopefully with how much I've been eating I can drop five or six lbs this week.

Now for the prize inside. Something every ana should know about. And its a company called Walden Farms. They sell condiments but not just normal condiments, theirs are free of CALORIES, FAT, SUGAR, CARBS, and GLUTEN! They have mayo, peanut spread, jams, syrups, veggie and fruit dips, pasta sauces, salad dressings and more! so far, I've tried their ranch dressing and caramel fruit dip. Now, I'm not going to lie and say that they were amazing in comparison to full fat and sugar versions (which those products would of course normally be PACKED with) but for diet versions they were pretty good and for having no calories it is fantastic! If you read the fine print there are "trace calories" in the ingredients but they're required to report even 5 calories so there has to be less than that. I'll definitely be trying more of there products in the future and I recommend checking out their website and finding a grocery store near you that sells their products or ordering something.
www.waldenfarms.com
When I saw this I knew I just had to share it with others looking to cut calories and become more beautiful. If anyone tries anything, please tell me if you liked it.

That's my two cents for today, my pretties.
<3 Ariana

Quick Dip

sorry I'm a bit M.I.A. lately. My computer is being shit and wont stay online for long. I'm looking for a new one or rather a used one. Rest assured I'm keeping up with blogs. It's just hard to get posts up before it craps out on me.

I'm helping my best friend pack for a really long trip tomorrow. There will be cookies. Possibly pizza. I might just die.
But Monday starts a five day liquid fast in my traditional style. That means dinner with my parents and something sensible on days I have work. It's weak but I don't binge when I have dinner to look forward to. But I promise, no more than 300 calories. I'll stick to water and crystal light as much as possible. I wont let you or me down.
I got a pitcher for my crystal light today. It doesn't sound like much (or look like much) but I was excited. No more guesstimating how much powder to use and how many calories it is. Now I just make 2 quarts and get it just as easy as the high calorie juices and sodas in the fridge. Sorry about the random tangent. XP

Be thin, my lovelies.
<3 Ariana

Good- Sorta

Today, my family took a trip to a little beach town semi-near by for lunch. We went to a restaurant we only go to once a year so I did want to eat while I was there. So I skipped breakfast entirely, got a cheese burger, the best fires ever, and some gourmet ice cream (and didn't finish any of it but still ate a lot), then dinner was just a small bowl of fruit (negative calories!) and some crystal light. Plus a good deal of walking and some stretches and some time swinging. All in all, not too bad. Really good for eating out!
I found a new source of modivation last night. I realized that soon I'm going to see this girl B who I absolutely hate. We used to be friends because I took pitty on her cuz no one liked her. But it wasn't long before I realized why no one liked her. She's stupid, fat, lazy, whiney, cries a lot for no reason (and gets snot on you when she does EW!), and SHE DOESN'T BATHE!!! She constantly complains about her life but is always doing things she knows will make it worse just for the attention. Words can't describe what a pain in the ass she is. But before I knew all that I got a couple of my nicer friends to hang out with her too and she's invited to a couple of their graduation parties. Now, when I say she's fat I mean she is perfectly round and eats junk meals TEN times a day!!! Me, B, and my other friend who puts up with her C (yes, that makes us ABC lol) used to get together for sleep overs and B would eat more for breakfast than C and me put together the entire time we were together, then she wanted lunch two hours later. The three of us decided to lose weight together at the begining of the year. In January I lost 10 lbs, C lost 5, and B was so proud of her self because she lost 2 LBS! The whole month! And she celebrated with a foot long sub, chips, fries, and cookies! And that was just in the two hours we were together. Anyways, we got in a huge fight because she was being ridiculously bitchy and self-centered and after she made a huge scene in public I stopped talking to her. It's been four months since I last saw her and I want to be fucking skinny! I want to show that nightmare what real work'll get you. I'm not sure when one of the parties is but one is in two weeks so I'm fasting in some form or another every day til then.
Tomorrow is a fruit fast, maybe a little dairy and some crystal light but that's it. I have to admit it eventually, I'm back to a disqusting, sickening 140lbs! YUK! But I want to be bellow 135 by the party. I'm going to aim for 132 by June 12th!
Sorry this got a bit rambly.
Wish me luck, ladies. Think thin.
<3 Ariana

Whoosh!

That's how my head feels. All whoosh like :) I'm a little feverish on and off today and really tired after an extremely busy day at work and keep getting light headed from coughing fits and just started my period (it's been over two months and I have to say I was kind of proud when I never got it, like I was doing something right). After catching up on blogs I had another coughing fit and now feel pretty shitty and whoosh. So this is going to be short. I'll try to post what I was planning tomorrow or at least really soon.
I didn't eat at work today which I was proud of. I could have gotten one of the really decadent deserts today. I really wanted something cold on my throat and that was about all we had but I didn't have any. It probably doesn't sound all that impressive to anyone else but my will power has been so low lately and between stress, hormones, and a strong burning sensation in my throat I was proud to have just said no to food in general.
So that's the small little world of my throbbing head.
Be thin, dears.
<3 Ariana
p.s. being bloated and crampy my tummy is smaller than it was yesterday when I wasn't. Strange, huh?

Sick :(

Hello to my lovely new follower Alice D. (I love that name; it sounds like drugs ;P lol)
Well, yesterday's daytime water fast went well. I wound up eating probably around 500 calories at dinner :C but at least that's better than what I've been tending toward lately.
But this morning I woke up with a swollen throat and fever. Since I need to be able to work tomorrow I wound up foregoing the liquid fast. Instead I ate lots of soup (with noodles :( ) and popsicles and cold drinks. But it did mean that even though I didn't wind up going out I didn't have to eat a proper dinner!
Tomorrow I plan to have some eggs and fruit and grab some beef vegetable soup at work so there aren't any more horrible noodle infractions.
Also, I did something I realised I should have done months ago and bought some crystal light raspberry lemonade mix. No more wasteing 110 calories a glass! Just 5 calories and no sugar- B-E-A-Utiful!
I'll leave things there but I've got something special to tell you about tomorrow.
A demain, mes petites.
<3 Ariana

None Shall Pass!!!

First of all, a big hello to my beautiful new follower Hazel. I absolutely love your blog!


But on to business. I have basically done nothing all week but binge. I haven't had a single day under 1000 calories since the begining of the month and have been averaging probably between 2000 and 3000 whopping disgusting calories!!!!!!!! It has been unseasonably hot and humid this week and that means tons and tons of cookies breaking at work, melty, doughy ones like I love. But I found a wonderful way to motivate myself to cut down on the calories while reading Hazel's blog. Starting today I will be doing one conditioning exercise for every 5 calories I consume. 50 extra reps should make me think twice before I pick at one of those cookies!

I have two days off work now so I'm taking full advantage of the limited temptation surrounding me and doing a water fast today and a liguid fast tomorrow. I'll try to skip dinner if I can. I think I'm going out tomorrow night so I can most likely get away with just a protein shake. I'm not gonna mess this one up damn it! I have to get my self control back before I turn into a house.

Wish me luck, I'm going to need it.

Be thin my pretties.
<3 Ariana

**Edit**
The post time says it was still last night when I posted but here it is morning.

Bad bad bad

In retrospect after an almost two-week binge maybe a water fast wasn't the best way to start off. I was so hungry! My stomach was growling when I got to work and I had a horrible head-ache. And low and behold we had a bunch of cookies break. I had four hours left to my shift and customers were a pain in the ass today; one of them took a whole FIFTEEN MINUTES to order two sandwiches!!!!!! Anyway, I wound up eating three!!! CRAP! They weren't even that good, no chocolate or anything but the texture and chewing were so good.
But tomorrow is a liquid fast. Much more manageable especially with an endless supply of coffee in the afternoon. So the plan is a little milk and lemonade through the day then lots of coffee when I get to work and some decaf for dinner. Then friday's water fast only lasts til dinner so that wont be too hard.
I wont fail again! I can't! Not one more solid object will pass my lips until Friday night. I swear.
Be skinny, lovelies.
<3 Ariana

I'm Back

I'm back on the blogosphere and so many things have changed!
Of course there's GRADUATING!!! I was bigger than I hoped but not as big as I could have been. There was a five course meal after! FIVE! How?! I had so many left overs. I'm still working on them.
I got a job too! It's at the cafe I meantioned a long time ago. I'm surrounded by delicious smelling/ looking (/tasteing) food all the time. I get free coffee and soup (yay!) and soda and broken cookies (yikes!) and discounted baked goods and huge cheesey entrees. I'm going to have to be extra strong if I'm not going to eat there but I will do it.
I also got some new shape-ups. I wear them at work where I'm constantly walking around and for the ten minute power walk to/from work I take when it's not raining or after dark.
I've been eating like crazy for nearly two weeks now. I'm not sure exactly how much weight I've gained but I've definitely got a lot of work to do. On the bright side, since I've been consuming so many calories it shouldn't be too hard to drop 5 lbs fast. I always go to the beach at the begining of July so my new goal is to reach 120 by the time I don that bikini in a month and a half.
I've been really looking forward to fasting again instead of dreading it like I had been recently. I've gotten binging out of my system for a while and I'm reved up to drop the gut I've been reunited with. I don't officially start fasting until wednesday. The plan is: Teus: Restrict- 1 left over cheese manicotti and breadstick to finish off the more expensive of the leftovers (the cheaper ones I'll just throw out), a cup of the soup of the day for dinner, and liquids not to exceed 1000 calories total; Wed: Water Fast- from the soup on Teusday to breakfast Thursday, maybe some milk after 1am thursday if I can't get to sleep; Thurs: Liquid Fast- straight through midnight, nothing but juice, coffee, milk, and water; Fri: Water Fast- I'll have to eat a little at dinner but nothing else. I'm working nights this week and next so I don't have to eat with my parents on the nights I work. I can claim to have eaten at work and have soup or skip dinner all together. (Ana is trying to help me fast!) I'll be fasting next week too then I'm thinking restrict for a week then fast another week.
I will be thin this summer!!!!!
<3 Ariana